Invisible

There comes a time in a man's life
when he feels invisible...
A shadow of the person he used to be
A vapor of the man who once was
Overlooked in his job
Enveloped by a Honey-To Do list
Hidden behind his wallet to his children
Camoflauged in the church pew

He has been stricken to be a soul begging on the street,
his own street,
desperately wanting to be seen by another,
a penny for a stranger?
food for the starving?
and water for the dying?


There comes a time in a man's life
when he feels invisible
a shadow of the ideal man
fallen short of the mainstream
never looked beyond the color of his skin
enveloped by fear, prejudice, and the desire to win
smothered by those in power and might

He has been stricken to be a soul begging on the street,
his own street,
desperately wanting to be seen by another,
a penny for a stranger?
food for the starving?
and water for the dying?

There comes a time in a man's life
when he feels invisible
rejected by his peers for the struggle within
held at arms length for his brotherly longings
condemned to hell by the places of "hope"
abandoned by family and pseudo friends

He has been stricken to be a soul begging on the street,
his own street,
desperately wanting to be seen by another,
a penny for a stranger?
food for the starving?
and water for the dying?

There comes a time in a man's life
when he feels invisible
hidden behind a frock, a uniform,a robe
dismissed for his beliefs and perfection's persona
isolated from his brother sheep
believed to be a man of God who doesn't need one

He has been stricken to be a soul begging on the street,
his own street,
desperately wanting to be seen by another,
a penny for a stranger?
food for the starving?
and water for the dying?

Loneliness

"We are lonely for many things: We ware lonely for more love and communication, more unity, and understanding, than we have at present. We are longing and restless for a wholeness we do not yet possess. We are tormented by feelings of insatiability, thirsting constantly, want to know more people, wanting to be known by more people, wanting to be more places, and wanting to ber "where it is at," in every sense of that cliche.We are frustrated because our relationships are too frequently fraught with ambiguity and misunderstanding, with pettiness and betrayal. We feel empty and incomplete because we are missing out on so much of life, constantly living at the fringes,as through a glass, darkly, away from the action, unable to completely sort through the riddle of life, at the door without a key, unable to fully enter. We feel nostalgia and death as precious friends and precious moments leave us, never to return, as youth and fullness slowly leave our bodies, as the clock ticks away and we lose so much of what we had. We feel both agony and ecstacy in our loneliness as we experience both the tension that makes for life and the loss that makes for death."
From the Book "The Restless Heart: Finding our spiritual home in a time of loneliness" by Ronald Rolheiser

I see the face of Jesus in you
I hear him in your voice.
You cause the Jesus to rise up in me,
his compassion to overflow
his mercy to well up
his love to pour out
and his grace to subdue.
I see the face of Jesus in you,
I hear him in your cries.
You cause the Jesus to rise up in me,
his courage to overcome,
his truth to free,
his paitience to wait
and his joy to release.
I see the face of Jesus in you,
I hear him in your pleas.
You cause the the Jesus to rise up in me,
the man of sorrows,
the son of man
the scorned and hated one
I see.

The heart desires

The flesh desires relief, the heart desires healing
The flesh desires comfort, the heart desires growth
the flesh desires pleasure, the heart desires joy
the flesh desires immediacy, the heart desires patience
the flesh desires sexual release, the heart desires connection
the flesh desires taste, the heart desires nutrition
the flesh desires freedom, the heart desires discipline
the flesh desires its own way, the heart desires correction
the flesh desires revenge, the heart desires forgiveness
the flesh desires more, the heart desires contentment
the flesh desires fantasy, the heart desires reality
the flesh desires ease, the heart desires strength
the flesh desires perfection, the heart desires reflection
the flesh desires rest, the heart desires peace
the flesh desires rage, the heart desires understanding
the flesh desires judgement, the heart desires acceptance
the flesh desires power, the heart desires influence
the flesh desires control,the heart desires resolution
the flesh desires money,the heart desires generosity
the flesh desires fame, the heart desires to be known
the flesh desires beauty,the heart desires love

A Broken World

We live in a broken world,
where little ones die of hunger,
and men rape the earth for their own pleasure.
We live in a fallen world,
where the wars of greed terrorize the soul,
where sons are forgotten,
and daughters taken advantage of.
This is the world in its fallen state,
and we wonder...
Where is God?
Why is he so silent?
Why doesn't he step in?
Why what is -should never have been?
And we learn-
that he truly is the man of sorrow,
how his heart breaks
at our own destruction.

My daughter,
How I loved you so
In your short little life here
How you changed my world
and I now see
I now see
love

There is no such thing as the easy way
not when your searching for healing
and wisdom
no, there is no such thing as the easy way
the best lessons we learn in life
are always the hardest
from the mistakes of others or our own
we learn that everything has a price
every dream costs us something
not everything that is lost will be found
Some things we lose forever, on this side of heaven
and we must learn to Grieve and to mourn
To accept the loss and not hold out false hope
but hold to the reality that we are still His
No matter the void
I am learning what it means to embrace the cost